roastelk
06-16-2008, 10:22 AM
Have any of you ever experienced the eerie feeling of realizing that you are truly not the same person you were a year ago....
I'll spare you guys most of the details... save to say I've gone from being a quiet chronically depressed loner with no friends or social skills, to being a person with a very full life. I've also obtained a very high control of my stutter, where as a year and a half ago I usually resorted to pen and paper to communicate with people....
In late winter 2007 something just snapped in my head, I cant really explain it, nor do i really understand it, but a life altering epiphany came to me literally while I was at the end of my rope... I was ready to hang myself and slip into non existence. but I kept asking myself what was important to me, what i wanted out life, and I found many reasons to keep going. one reason in particular drives me more than any other, it drove me to seek help, to change myself and to push myself to do things I never thought I'd be doing.
My top reason happened far sooner and not under the circumstances I would have preferred, but those circumstances where my doing. my top reason is sleeping in a incubator in a neonatal care unit right now, she's four weeks early and so tiny, but otherwise doing good. please Welcome Olga Mae (Ollie) to the world for me.
I'll spare you guys most of the details... save to say I've gone from being a quiet chronically depressed loner with no friends or social skills, to being a person with a very full life. I've also obtained a very high control of my stutter, where as a year and a half ago I usually resorted to pen and paper to communicate with people....
In late winter 2007 something just snapped in my head, I cant really explain it, nor do i really understand it, but a life altering epiphany came to me literally while I was at the end of my rope... I was ready to hang myself and slip into non existence. but I kept asking myself what was important to me, what i wanted out life, and I found many reasons to keep going. one reason in particular drives me more than any other, it drove me to seek help, to change myself and to push myself to do things I never thought I'd be doing.
My top reason happened far sooner and not under the circumstances I would have preferred, but those circumstances where my doing. my top reason is sleeping in a incubator in a neonatal care unit right now, she's four weeks early and so tiny, but otherwise doing good. please Welcome Olga Mae (Ollie) to the world for me.