What's up with you?

[specious_reasons]

Glad you're getting better, michio. I hope the baby didn't catch it.

I finally sorted through all the photos and stuff we have saved from my relatives. I have sorted what I want to send to the distant relative who may be interested — an ancestor of the people related to my great-aunt's husband. Several of these are photo books that are too fragile to survive much handling, so I may take pictures of the pages rather than scan the pictures in them.

Right now I'm scanning in my Prom photo.

[specious_reasons]

Wasted about 20 minutes of my day fixing a really stupid problem. I vaguely realized that in my "music only" shuffle playlist I wasn't hearing anything I bought in the last 6 months.

I had to look at the settings, only to discover I needed to actually rate the songs to have them appear. By default, I rate everything 3 stars to start, and adjust over time, but I had forgotten to do that for quite a while. It's better now.

[michio]

I realized lately how absolutely plugged in I've been, and it's been due to stress. I just got off a project at my new job, and I had time to breathe. I don't know how to describe it, I came to my senses and realized how stressed I've been but I didn't think I was stressed?

I early voted Monday. If you're curious, I undervoted (I left the selection for president blank).

When I started witnessing manmade horrors beyond my comprehension, shot in 4k, I couldn't look away, and I injected it directly into my veins. I think a lot of us are simply traumatized from the past few years.

I feel like software development is making me crazy? It's a very weird, unnatural thing when I sit there and think about it. I don't think I can handle using a computer not-for-work, when I'm already slowly losing my mind throughout the day when I have to use it for my job. Maybe I'm not the right kind of crazy for it even though I can do it well enough to get paid for it?

My son is almost a year old and it's scary thinking, "Jesus... a year flew by." I realized how much having a new baby affected me even though I thought I was handling it well, but I kind of haven't been. The stress has been insane. I've gotten good at ignoring my emotions and simply powering through the day, but it's gotten too unbearable now.

Work stress, new baby, manmade horrors beyond my comprehension shot in 4k. I'm at a breaking point, and I don't like the kind of person I've become.

I'm turning everything off, and I'm gonna go be with my family.