What's up with you?

[JoeP]

First kid? (There should be a meme about that)

[viscousmemories]

I lived in five different places in three cities with my mom and diminishing numbers of siblings until I was 16, then I was out on my own. For no good reason I had the idea to go to each of those five places and take pictures of them yesterday, so I did that.

Unrelated, I have been trying to get a list of all my previous employers from the SSA for years and finally succeeded. I can now say with confidence that I have had over 50 employers, and because some of those were temp agencies I can safely say I've had even more jobs. Probably on average about one per year of my life, in fact.

[JoeP]

Originally Posted by viscousmemories

I lived in five different places in three cities with my mom and diminishing numbers of siblings until I was 16, then I was out on my own. For no good reason I had the idea to go to each of those five places and take pictures of them yesterday, so I did that.

I couldn't get to all the places I lived in up to the age of 16 in one day. Maybe technically in a 24 hour period, most of it driving.

For Miisa it would involve a couple of flights.

[LarsMac]

Originally Posted by JoeP

I couldn't get to all the places I lived in up to the age of 16 in one day. Maybe technically in a 24 hour period, most of it driving.

For Miisa it would involve a couple of flights.

It would likely take me a month to accomplish such an objective.

I was in 14 different schools, in ten states, by the time I completed high school.

[Ensign Steve]

Originally Posted by michio

This issue started when I dropped out of college. It wasn't the dropping out of college that made me feel like a worthless piece of shit, it was knowing that I could have done better, but I chose not to. I chose to skip class. I chose to play video games. I chose to not do my homework.

fwiw, you're super not alone there. Washing out of college was my first failure, literally the first time in my life I didn't excel at what I was trying to do. It was 1994 and I got my first computer and internet and I spent all my time fucking around with that instead of going to class. I eventually got my BS degree 18 years later, but I never stopped feeling ashamed when I would put "some college" on whatever application or form I was filling out.

[LarsMac]

I'm just gonna drop in here to say that my college career was not quite as stable as my High School history.

[seebs]

hey long time no see! i got reminded of this place because someone linked me to a history blog post by livius and i thought i'd log in and say hi.

life is weird and confusing and i'm existentially exhausted.

[fragment]

seebs! welcome back!

life is weird and confusing and i'm existentially exhausted

[JoeP]

Originally Posted by seebs

i got reminded of this place because someone linked me to a history blog post by livius and i thought i'd log in and say hi.

Now all we need is for someone to link liv to someone's post somewhere, say Bey's tie-dyes on F******k, and remind her of this place.

[seebs]

anyway quick summary:

* still alive
* have a kid now, early-mid 20s
* his previous parents really sucked
* programming for a living
* still married to the same person
* old and disabled and super mad at all the people who told me that racism and shit were basically solved when i was growing up because fuck you they are absolutely not

[vremya]

seebs!

Now I have to make rigorist log in and say hi.

[rigorist]

Nope

[viscousmemories]

Wow, old home week. Hi guys!

[michio]

When I asked ChatGPT to pretend to be Carl Jung and give me some self-help advice, it suggested writing in a journal any time I have a strong negative emotional reaction to something, especially people, and analyze why I think I experienced that. What inner beliefs, motivations, and personality traits might cause me to feel that way?

I've naturally done this to a degree, but that's been the focus in my journal for the past 10 days or so. I've found it quite helpful.

I started taking buspirone for anxiety again. I had a good experience with it in the past. The most effective med I've tried was a traditional anti-depressant. I stopped taking it because it made me feel not-human. It completely eliminated my anxiety, but it also removed all of my other emotions. I'd rather feel something negative rather than nothing at all. No thanks.

[michio]

I went to the Botanical Garden in San Antonio, TX to see the eclipse. I need to go back mid-spring on a weekday when there aren't so many people there. I had pictures ruined/couldn't take from everyone walking around.

[vremya]

I spent the whole day on the sofa doing a crossword puzzle, watching YouTube videos and looking stuff up in Wikipedia. It was awesome.

[JoeP]

That might be me today.

I've had a sore throat and cough - covid test negative - and then flew England - Finland yesterday. Went to bed at 8:30, got up 12 hours later.

[Ari]

The Hamas attacks have been indirectly weird for me in that my name is Ari and I'm a big fan of the genre of music played at the festival, but also I'm not Jewish and I never plan on partying a stones throw from a tense international border with a potential enemy. It's an odd combination of both hitting close to home and missing by miles.

[JoeP]

One of the worst possible things ever has just occurred.

Half my biscuit fell into my tea.

[vremya]

[LarsMac]

I spent most of yesterday unsnarling a massive "Flying Spaghetti Monster" ball of electrical wiring inside the wall of the bathroom we are attempting to remodel at daughter's house.

[michio]

I went to my baby shower today and had an existential crisis. Came home and sat on the couch for a bit, life didn't feel real. It actually didn't feel like the baby was real until the baby shower for some reason.

I've barely looked at the news for over a week and I'm healthier for doing so.

Had an interview with O'reilly Auto Parts for a software dev position. I think I did pretty damn good.

I really need a psychedelic trip again. The sanest times in my life were when I was eating shrooms or taking LSD on a somewhat regular basis, like every few months. It's been a few years since the last one. It's pretty easy to cultivate your own psilocybin mushrooms now with all-in-one kits that are completely legal. Gonna look into that. I need that now more than ever.

I need a hard break from electronics for a few months to focus on a new job + baby which is a lot. The only thing I'm allowed to use a computer for is my job.

[Ari]

I'm unsure how it looks at the moment, but in the past I would highly recommended the blue forum that rhymes with the boomery for cultivation information.

[michio]

Originally Posted by Ari

I'm unsure how it looks at the moment, but in the past I would highly recommended the blue forum that rhymes with the boomery for cultivation information.

Highly credible, as long as you're following up-to-date guides.

[JoeP]

Suddenly I have a strong urge to discover and cultivate rooms.